there sleeps tatania

i think i've recently exhausted livejournal entertainment

2005-04-06T05:13:29Z

somehow lj doesn't provide distraction the way it used to. but my neighbour has a girl over with an obnoxious laugh so i should stay up for a bit until said girl departs on her merry way and then i can to go sleep. i went to the art studio tonight to do a charcoal self portrait, other than the eyes, its okay i guess, but they kinda mess up the picture, alas, it'll be okay. its to bad i can't take another art class next semester, i really like being in the studio again. i went down to the arts center to check out some stuff in the darkroom, so now i can order whats missing, which is terribly exciting indeed. means i should take some pictures so i have something to print. alissa, i want my sex and the city back, i've exhausted season six part one and freak and geeks and need something new to watch...

lucedellastella @ 2005-03-02T13:31:00

2005-03-02T18:31:56Z

when there is nothing left to burn you have to set yourself on fire

lucedellastella @ 2005-02-27T02:24:00

2005-02-27T07:25:04Z

i stayed at the art studio and worked on my drawing till now. caity kept me company over the phone. i miss you love!

i am destined to live in chelsea someday

2005-02-20T05:48:11Z

great day, so much art so little time. more detailed description to come, for now, to bed.

lucedellastella @ 2005-02-17T13:13:00

2005-02-17T18:17:04Z

i just went for an interview at the beekman st art gallery. mary seemed really interested in my interning there for credit over the summer. it wouldn't be that demanding only two days a week and she's really interested in letting the intern do a lot, which would be great for me. the gallery is okay, not amazing, but i think it would be fun, and a good learning experience, so i think i'm going to take it, which is pretty exciting. she even gave me fresh water pearl studs when i was leaving, so sweet! now all i have to do is meet with my advisor and see how one goes about getting an internship approved for credit. i think that involves finding an advisor for the internship and paying the school $600, but other than that, my understanding is that it probably isn't that difficult to do. we shall see...

lucedellastella @ 2005-02-13T22:56:00

2005-02-14T03:57:40Z

i've had a lovely weekend muchly satisfied through stars and wind and settles and family.

of all the possible answers...oh the irony, jules, this is for you

2005-02-09T04:43:52Z

MOTHER FUCKER

2005-02-06T15:25:06Z

if i ever find the fucker who doesn't know how to back out of a parking space and somehow in a non parallel parking scenerio, as we have at school, dents not one but both my driver's side doors SHIT IS GOING DOWN. the fucking doors were the only part poor jane hadn't had replaced. so today i will spend my time on the phone talking to the insurance company.

on the up side, i bought cinema paradiso, on the down side it might be awhile before i'm able to watch it. anchorman with jonah on the other hand was just right. i suppose even bad days can end on a not so bad note.

lucedellastella @ 2005-02-03T17:32:00

2005-02-03T22:36:15Z

i'm a hopeless romantic
you're a terrible flirt
cool and unfazed, you're always amazed
when someone gets hurt
i live on the blue planet
that i saw in your eye
but now i can't stay
knowing its made
of beautiful lies
but my sentimental melody
like a long-lost lullabye
will ring in your ears
down through the years
bringing a tear to your eye
goodbye
love can kill people, can't it
will it still may kill me
each drop of rain
is a glass of champagne
its sweet and its free
when i drink i don't panic
when i drink i don't die
when i'm far gone
its all just a song
just beautiful lies
but my sentimental melody
like a long-lost lullabye
will in your ears
down through the years
bringing a tear to your eye
goodbye

lucedellastella @ 2005-02-03T16:53:00

2005-02-03T21:52:46Z

maybe its just cause i'm sick but i can't push away thoughts i'd been so good at supressing

sick and sad

2005-02-01T05:40:54Z

i need the cough supressant fairy to leave some robatussin under my pillow asap...

lucedellastella @ 2005-01-31T01:22:00

2005-01-31T06:22:47Z

i am currently eating peanut butter and nutella out of the containers with a spoon.

a caitlin quote

2005-01-25T15:07:39Z

"maybe he's like, 'i'm so comfortable with who i am i don't need to punctuate.'" oh man, caity b you never cease to amuse me <3

nothing like the counting crows to tell the world how you're feeling

2005-01-17T18:15:59Z

all dressed up no place to go
hey monkey when you gonna show your face
around me

lucedellastella @ 2005-01-16T20:21:00

2005-01-17T01:29:38Z

home sweet home, i <3 boston, even when its cold and snowy. saw in good company with my mom yesterday cause lily went with holly, it was cute but i was kinda disappointed. saw million dollar baby tonight with maria and my dad in harvard square and then had dinner at the border cafe cause my dad didn't want pizza from 1 cambridge, i've gotta get someone to eat there with me its so fun inside. went to lexington center yesterday and found out a not your average joe's is moving into the copa cafe space. this is very very very disappointing. okay so i knew copa was on its way out but not your average joes, i've never been inside one but they're the kinda mediocre restaurant that all looks the same and the copa was done so beautifully. they're already ripped out the marble and cherry bar and torn up the floors. its such a shame, i no longer have a lovely place to get coffee where there never was anyone around. its sad, i'm disappointed. now that copa and upper story books are gone, what am i supposed to do in the center??? okay, cohoes is pretty amusing and i have thus far purchased a burburry cashmere sweater, true religion jeans (ashlee simpson's favorite denim brand, haha too bad her concert is sold out cait and lily and i would totally have gone over spring break!) which i need a boys oppinion on whether i should keep and seeing as boys are lacking these days i don't know what i'll end up doing about the jeans, and a cashmere and wool winter coat, but its on the low end i have to say and not what i want lexington center to become! i liked the lexington center of good bagels good coffee and good used books! well thats enough of that, what are ya gonna do?

lucedellastella @ 2005-01-11T00:49:00

2005-01-11T08:51:37Z

this is quite the california tour. tomorrow i'm taking the train to san diego to visit steven for the night. it should be lovely. i wish this god damn rain would stop. today there was a river, and yes with current, replacing the street. i want a little baby to keep my stomach warm when i watch movies always. yeah yeah i know enough about the baby, don't read it if you're bored!

lucedellastella @ 2005-01-10T00:03:00

2005-01-10T08:04:26Z

if a little tiny benjapillar sleeping curled up on my tummy isn't heaven i don't know what is.

lucedellastella @ 2005-01-08T16:30:00

2005-01-09T00:31:40Z

oh man do i have the cutest nephew EVER. checkout benjamin.tobenair.com (no www) SO CUTE!

fabulous. can't wait.

2005-01-05T02:51:27Z

In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Getting knocked up...twice.

Get your resolution here

i guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower...

2005-01-01T15:08:34Z

its been a long december and there's reason to believe maybe this year will be better than the last. i can't remember all the times i tried to tell myself to hold on to these moments as they pass.

sing me to sleep i'm tired and i want to go to bed

2004-12-29T23:36:11Z

i sleep. i have been out of bed for hour hours today. now i'm going back to sleep. you see, i take solice in my dreams. even if they're bad ones when i awake i can safefly say it was all just a dream. i can't say that of my waking thoughts. they don't just disappear.

lucedellastella @ 2004-12-09T17:44:00

2004-12-09T22:50:08Z

you know when you're trying not to cry and you feel that constriction and aching inside your throat, i feel it all over my body. this can't be the answer. more than anything i hate the inaction.

lucedellastella @ 2004-12-09T11:13:00

2004-12-09T16:15:52Z

you have been gone for what feels like the longest winter break its just three day but its so much more than i can really take.

lucedellastella @ 2004-12-08T23:30:00

2004-12-09T04:38:06Z

i can not even ask when will it get easier. its that very easing up i fear the most. the easing up that seals what i have lost, and isn't that the worst of all?

highlights of the day:
am going to bed without finished paper for 9:40 am class.
tried to merely dropp off preliminary ticket and was forced to appear in court, resulting in an additional $50 charge for my already $50 ticket for talking on my cellphone while driving. mass is the place for me, am slowling starting to hate new york, all i want to do is go home, yet even that scares me cause i'm going to a home where no one will be and i'll have a week to spend all alone thinking about how i thought that week would be. i was rudely tricked. when i asked the officer where to go to give the ticket he said well since you're here and on the calendar you can see the judge and he'll tell you how much the fine is. yeah little do they tell you you get an additional "sur charge" i don't even know what that means.
i will never again forget where the insert button on the computer is.
lori mckenna makes me cry.

lucedellastella @ 2004-12-06T19:51:00

2004-12-07T00:53:36Z

"if i lived till i was a hundred and two i just don't think i'll ever get over you."
love always, sweetness,
sara.